Today was one of those pretty good days =)

Had opdent test in the morning. Short answers and wasn't too short or too long, I could answer some/most(?) of the questions and waffled others so I think I went alright in it and hopefully didn't somehow screw it up. Basically though it was one of those tests that I've missed in dent, not 10 minute tests worth 20% that took up a whole weekend's worth of study. After that I decided to go into the pros lab to trim my baseplate for tomorrow's prac sessions. It was semi-relaxed because it was sort of done of my own accord and I didn't actually feel like I was obliged to go in because everyone was doing it in their strive for perfection. It still needs some work but hopefully it'll be ok by the end of tomorrow.

Headed down to Chilliz for lunch, was originally thinking of freo fish + chips or something after the test but I guess some people just couldn't really be bothered. Drove down to cottlesloe after with Lydia, Michael, Sarah and Ali to chillax after 3 weeks of bothersome study. Ahh yes, sun + sand + sea + reading + icecream = :)

Spring feast was rather slow at the beginning, there were heaps of people and lots of aimless wandering about on my part and really long queues. Picked up after actually deciding what to eat and meeting up with geek to continue wandering about aimlessly (+one). Saw some people that I haven't met in a while like Anthony, Nicole and James, as well as quite a few dents who rocked up during their library breaks =P Headed back to my car after to go over to geek's and found a fake police fine on my windscreen. Haha, nice work Mr Hump.

I guess sometimes quiet time can be nice as well. Only in certain situations though, which occur quite rarely nowadays.
But still, it's the little things =)
What am I going to do once I run out of books to read?

I have no hopes for tomorrow though.
I know all too well how it can be good one day but utterly horrible the next, especially considering that tomorrow IS Friday.

1. Vodka + Lemonade
2. Jagerbomb
3. Toohey's midi
4. Toohey's #2 (it was on special)
5. Jagerbomb #2
6. Cowboy (Vodka? + Baileys)
7. Scotch + Cola
8. Gin + Tonic

GV Black's this year was awesome :) Thanks to Josh for driving, Bassem for dancing crazily without a drop of alcohol in him and Steven for attempting (albeit failing) to get 'tipsy' for my sake :P

Spoons is such a violent game, and I officially suck at it :(

Tomorrow I start second semester of 2nd year again.
And with about half an hour to go, I've realised that I'm actually still not ready even though I'm repeating the year.

This time last year I was dizzy with excitement after returning from the Adelaide convention and resuming the semester with my coursemates.
Tonight I'm back from the Sydney convention, and that previous feeling is nowhere to be found.
And my inability to make small talk has come back to bite me on the behind when I found myself staring at the keyboard while trying to continue a conversation with one of my closest friends. What a giant stab to my insecurity about being just about the most boring person right now.

I found out that a lax timetable doesn't necessarily lead to high marks - proven by a less-than-satisfactory result for an exam which I was fairly confident in, due my firm belief that it was actually someone else's fault that I was unable to perform well in that particular exam the previous year. Turns out, it was all just me.

MSN hates me as well, choosing the perfect moments not to send my messages or sign me out.
As if I need more of a reason to think of myself as a loser. I miss my friends, those who're away, those who're just always busy, those who probably hate my guts right now, those who've moved on and those who could make my day with just the simplest thing. There's so much more stuff on my mind, but it's all a jumble that I can't actually form proper sentences so screw it.

I promise that this will be the last emo post, because after today I shall get back into the frenzy of 2nd semester and there will be no more time for unnecessary thoughts. My brain will be too busy storing information and my heart will exist just to keep me alive.

Fingers crossed. 

I've realised I don't spend much time at home (it's actually been brought to my attention about a week ago when my sister's friends comment on how long it's been since we've seen each other since I'm always away when they come over).

But seriously, after such a busy timetable (and being in a tightknit year group) I now find that I have too much time to be bored. TG for random visits, movie binges, "study" sessions and lecture-crashing. I seriously love my car right now (and of course, the SP-ers that put up with me). Oh and talks about the randomest things are always fun. Pity they don't happen very often, but I guess if they did it wouldn't be as enjoyable :)

Wow I'm on a blogging frenzy (if 2 in a row counts as one).

Umm, I might be suffering from a slight mtg withdrawal *shakes fist at GNF*

Sigh that new CAD comic just killed my day. I used to think it was such a geeky comic and kept teasing Steven about it (since he was and still is our token geek). That was before I actually got into the storylines etc and started really liking it.

Yes what a shock. Ah well.

I was quite looking forward to the current one (even waiting through the random 'filler' ones i dont really understand), but NOOOWW :(

Ok, end of post.
You can stop reading now.
The rest of this is me being emo, ONCE AGAIN :)

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So sometimes I'm just constantly aware of certain stuff, even if I try to act ignorant and joke about as if everything's just fine. But other times I wonder if I'm paying attention to the right stuff. Is this really okay? Or am I just oblivious to the signs that would seem glaringly obvious to others? When will I realise that it's not all a joke? Or has it always been, and will still always be "nothing"?

Some things I don't think patience can fix. I just lack the ability to KNOW.
Why is it that everyone else seems to be doing so well in this area?
How can they be so sure that everything can end up.. just fine?

Since anything that can go wrong, will eventually go wrong. Sometimes it's the waiting that gets to you.

pfft, happy and bubbly. what a load of rubbish

Give me nerd,geek,freak over crazy/outgoing/"non-boring" people any day =)

Some days you can't help but feel empty inside.
Or get the feeling that you're standing still while watching everyone move forward.
It's easy to get bothered by what's going on around you and let the sadness sink in.

That's why it's important to treasure those few rare instances that make you feel wholly happy, however random they may be.
'Cause you never know when the next one's gonna come.

Sometimes life doesn't suck that much =)
Although being free when others are busy (and vice versa) happens too frequently lately that it's frustrating.

Might quit my job, somehow recent changes have made it less of the fun place I remembered it as.
Or I could stay for the money, to save up for a possible end-of-year trip with the a4 bunch (should I get my hopes up?)
I think too much of the little things, and tend to ignore the big picture.

Why should I give you everything
When you will only break my heart?

paranoia's a bitch.

Okay.

So I'll have to work on the whole "dealing with being in 2nd year again" thing. I finished uni early and was just sitting around doing nothing. About an hour and a bunch of 3rd years later I stormed out of the common room after nearly shouting that I was waiting for a reason to stay but it was apparent that there wasn't any. So yes, it was so incredibly immature on all counts that I instantly regretted doing it. But when the words came out it felt like a huge slap to the face and a wake-up call and I just had to get away because it felt so horribly true.

And I thought I'd already gotten over the 'problems' (cough) in my life.

I don't want to lose another friend. It was sad when I left Msia, even though I usually don't admit it because I reckon I felt like a loner back there anyway. I got over it though, and made new friends who have really made me feel at home and accepted. And over the years I've slowly expanded my friendship circle and attempted to fix my antisocial ways to let other people in and it feels like I'm actually part of something now. I can even (sorta) deal with splitting up with some uni friends because I screwed up and failed a year, but I know that we'll still be able to see each other since we're all stuck in the same building anyway.

But it really sucks when you find out that one of your best friends might be leaving for good in a year or two.
And there's nothing you can do about it =(

I wish I could tell you not to go, but that's no right of mine
I'll just have to deal with it when the time comes.

OMG the wonders of Wikipedia, Google and Youtube =)

Last night I was wikipedia-ing the movie Enchanted, and one thing led to another and I came across an old anime movie which I absolutely loved when I was young - Swan Lake! No not the Disney-like version, although I guess I rather liked that as well. Ahhh the memories =P

I managed to find it on Youtube, but sadly it was re-dubbed in English twice (I have NO idea why) and most of the them are from the newer version (which sounds dodgier in my opinion AND they have different lines!! which sound totally unfamiliar and also sound weirder and cornier), including a bunch with the entire movie separated into parts! Aarrgh, I could only find one from the 1978 version which I watched. Sigh and I wanted to rewatch it again =(



On another note, holidays are still rather boring. No Christmas plans, no New Year plans. Boo